“Schooled” by those “Diagnosed” Mentally Ill at a Non-Profit! Who’s helping Who?

I’m Mark Roach.  Inspiring survivors through tough times in stories needing a dash of male vulnerability to discover an enriched life.  If you’ve been listening to my story, you know I’ve been making my own lane through life, art and business since I was a kid.  If this is the first time you’ve tuned in, let me give a quick overview. I grew up in the Ozark Mountains. I was sexually molested at five by high school neighbor. At about the same point I was molested, my life was threatened by an organized crime syndicate run out of Kansas City. My father was an aspiring smart young detective. He became a local hero when he broke up a major Mexican drug cartel.  He caught them dropping drug shipments from airplanes into open fields.  I know, this sounds like the stuff movies are made of.  In real life though, these are things you may end up not talking about.  And that’s how I dealt with these traumas from my early childhood for nearly fifty years – not talking about them.  Didn’t even realize they were important.

I became an over achiever in athletics, business, engineering, in my work the oil business, even in art – film acting.  The rage inside me though created major conflicts.  I struggled.  I grew up with a secret that I didn’t even realize was important.   Trauma was lodged in my body, interrupted the development of my brain and nervous system, directing my thoughts in conflicting directions.  But my over-achievement over-shadowed the pain that was pulling at me, undermining my life, every relationship, every choice I made.

Fortunately, there was a lot of genuine love and discipline in my home. Otherwise, knowing what I now know, I would have become a criminal or been institutionalized. I’m talking about a deep love and an uncommon discipline different than most Americans know.  The early childhood trauma robbed me of a “traditional American identity”.  These hidden traumas caused me to open my own investigation – an investigation into myself.  It became my quest to regain access to what was lost.  It made me curious. I was curious about people, culture, capitalism and religious systems.  I was curious why others trusted systems and institutions that didn’t seem to have protected me or my family. At a deep level, I’ve been reconnecting to my heart’s knowledge, my birthright. While I’ve had what may seem contemporary success in athletics, academics, business and family, I’ve weathered hardships on this spiritual quest.  I’ve learned the hardships are insightful to the trauma and getting on a path that’s true.

So, here’s a good story!  Just over four years ago, a former oil man, a big risk taker who had been been wiped out in life, wanders into an Austin non-profit.  This non-profit serves people who have been diagnosed as mentally ill.  This man likes what the organization is doing for these people.  He decides to help them with fund-raising.  He joins them nearly five days a week for four months.  He films interviews with ten of their members challenged with life and mental illness.  Although he intended to get two-minute testimonials saying how much the non-profit helped these people, he ended up with much more.  In fact, all ten individuals opened up to him with details of their life stories.  Some shared their hopes and dreams.  Some confessed crimes.  Some explained violence they’d witnessed.  They told of rapes. Failures of their own, their families, and institutions.  They revealed touching stories and dark secrets.  Well, those 100 plus hours of video were never aired for privacy concerns.  But I will be sharing more.  A fascinating, unexpected twist though, is that these people through their stories helped this executive sort out his own troubles, as a host of professionals had failed to do in his long past.

I’m Mark Roach.  This is business meets Texas Indy Film.  Have a great week.

What’s the Risk? Do you conform? Following your Heart?

Would “they” hate you if they knew?  Are you vulnerable?  Do you have to be “American perfect”, popular?  Is everything either good or bad?  Are you aspiring or dealing?

What’s the risk if you do not conform?  What’s the alternative?  For a few hours one morning recently, I spoke to a semi-famous author and business man.  He’d come from the big city to a small town and built an empire and a large local following.  We were intrigued with each of our stories, the paths we’d taken in life.  Toward the end of our conversation, he remarked that I should be running a billion-dollar company, leading a large group of professionals, enjoying an affluent lifestyle.  I think he meant that as a compliment, but he certainly didn’t understand my intentions in life, I think I failed to communicate with him that morning.  I felt a little bad not conforming to the path this guy suggested.  But I’ve had to deal with some experiences and feelings, overcome some traumas and recover, that I doubt he had faced in life.  The risk of doing things my way, well was being alone or with a different group of people that might not be popular … in a lane blending expression and touching people.  I’m not really about being someone else, a song-and-dance entertainer, hard-core capitalist businessman or engineer.  But I do have an encouraging story to share and I’m seeing many of you do too.  I appreciate your support.

Check out by theatrical screenplays, Meat Suit and The Shah’s Granddaughter on Amazon and Kindle or listen to The Shah’s Granddaughter on Audible.  Links are on my website, RoachCreative.com.

I’m Mark Roach.  This is Business meets Texas Indy Film.

Kandy’s Room – Texas Indy Film on Amazon Prime

The Shah’s Granddaughter and Meat Suit – Amazon Kindle and Paperback, Audible

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What’s the Risk? What are you afraid of?

Many years ago I was working on a scene directed by my acting coach Cliff Osmond.  Cliff was out of LA.  He passed away few years ago, but also coached several stars, celebrities and touched thousands of lives as a coach.  So he’s given me this scene which is between a man and woman – husband and wife … I spilled the water when I tried to pour it in the glass several times – I was totally thrown by the blocking of the scene.  But I learned so much about my natural choices, my fears and preferences.  It was really painful, embarrassing, even humiliating from time to time, but my determination to overcome my developmental trauma issues eventually won out.

Maybe you take a look at your patterns when you’re feeling strongly.  Maybe you find some new freedom?

Kandy’s Room – Texas Indy Film on Amazon Prime

The Shah’s Granddaughter and Meat Suit – Amazon Kindle and Paperback

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What’s the Risk? Will things ever be the same again?

Wednesday, August 5, 2020

I’m Mark Roach.  This is Business meets Texas Indy Film.  My pursuit of acting and writing for film helped me heal from early childhood trauma.  Some of the same factors that drove me as an artist, also drove me in engineering and business.  

A few of you have come forward telling me my story helped you deal with your experiences.  Thanks for that.  If you’ve encountered trauma in your life, let me tell you, they’ve learned a lot about emotional healing, the mind body connection, since the 1990’s treating veterans suffering from combat trauma.  Check out EMDR, Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing.  Many trauma recovery resources are available on-line and through health care and therapy providers that can help you recover, get in touch with your feelings and get your life on track.

Change is part of life.  Today we’re seeing more change occur at the hands of – well however this virus is spread – that is changing everything.  So the real risk is not adapting, not protecting ourselves the best we can.  And like many times my acting career, I did the work, sometimes I thought I’d won the role, but really had no.  Sometimes I even got the role, but when I got on set – maybe I was taller than the star.  

In the oil business, the price of oil or natural gas was always an unknown.  And when you drilled a well, there were lots of factors that could make it a winner or a money loser.  Risk was inherent in the business.  You could even run into people wanting more than their fair share.

I feel lucky to be here.  Things are definitely changing and it’s looking like things won’t be the same.  So let’s do our best to make them better, one way or another.  I really do believe everything is going to be okay.  I’m Mark Roach.  This is business meets Texas Indy Film.

Kandy’s Room – Texas Indy Film on Amazon Prime

The Shah’s Granddaughter and Meat Suit – Amazon Kindle and Paperback

#roachcreative #story #texas #film #risk #planning #risk #reward #EMDR

What’s the Risk? Is it worth it?

Whether it’s a business proposition, a film project, a love or some part of your private life – if you find yourself contemplating a risk, you might ask your self if it’s worth it.  Is the potential outcome worth it?  Are you taking risks deliberately?

On a side note, some have inquired about healing from early childhood trauma.  Explore EMDR (Eye movement desensitization and reprocessing) resources online or through your healthcare network.

Kandy’s Room – Texas Indy Film on Amazon Prime

The Shah’s Granddaughter and Meat Suit – Amazon Kindle and Paperback

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What’s the Risk?

August 4, 2020 – Risk in the oil business comes in many forms, obviously today the risk is in the market as prices of oil have fallen lower than companies can afford to produce, so they’re going bankrupt!  

But what about films?  How do film projects work?  Are they predictable?

Kandy’s Room – Texas Indy Film on Amazon Prime

The Shah’s Granddaughter and Meat Suit – Amazon Kindle and Paperback

Note key thumbnail  photos are from Mark’s projects exploring for oil in Central America.  Mark  was leading the way to start an oil company, making direct contact with the local leaders and navigating the jungle to execute a geological interpretation strategy funded by International investors.

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Where’s your trust? Is it in your role? What’s holding you together?

It’s just a question.  Are you defined by either trust or distrust?  Do you conform, rebel or see yourself as ambivalent?  How does your role in life reflect what you trust?

Business meets Texas Indy Film

Mark Roach, 



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